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[Apr. 3rd, 2006|12:41 pm] |
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so i am a little upset because i did not apply to enough out of state schools and nearly everyone has been accepted to my schools and are thinking of goin there. it would be like central all over, and i dont want that to happen |
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| Im So Excited... |
[Mar. 28th, 2006|11:27 am] |
And i just cant hide it...and im about to lose control and i think i like it. I bought my prom dress on saturday, and it is so sexy. my mommy hated it but my dad said its nice. The dress is a halter, its red and shiny, the back is out and its long and sleek aka tight. i love it. my prom date is going to be derrick and that is official. my only problem is that he might try to out do me, but hopefully not. i cant wait to get my hair and my make up done...and it will all be great....plus i got a great deal on my dress $88.
i also got my license on monday and i am so excited. my boyfriend let me drive his car, he was terrified. other than that everything is great. i can not wait to graduate and move on with life...im so excited |
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| I Am So Over High School |
[Mar. 17th, 2006|01:29 pm] |
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I am a 2nd semester senior with 38 days left, and i am so over high school. i am really starting to feel the hate i have for central high school. Let me let you peak into my world. For the past four years, i have been waking up at 5:15 in the morning. I scuffle to get dress because i feel as though my mind is still unconscience, and then i dont even have time to eat breakfast. And you know what, i am tired of that. Also i am tired of hall passes, teachers telling me what to do, central high school cafeteria food, and the disgusting bathrooms. I am also sick and tired of the flying roaches, and anyother creepy crawly thing that central seems to give birth to.
I was never really good at high school. For some people high school is the perfect fit, and for most of those some high school is all they have. But for me that has never been the case...and so i purposely went to school with the motivation to get it over with and get out. I decided that i did not need very many friends because my mother drilled in my head that "everyone who smiles in your face, aint your friend." And so my thought was that as long as i got a few good bunch then thats all i wanted, but even that few good bunch seems to be fake at times. So now i really want to go to college and find my bunch, my group of friends, my crew. I mean i have one best friend and i love him more than life itself, but i would like to have at least one good female friend, but now even thats hard to come about. So consider this me also being tired of the people in high school. i especially hate that i would always be congenial to people, you know say hi maybe smile...and yet these are the people who think that i am a stuck up bitch. why? i dont know...but hey its only high school.
finally i am just tired of it all, all the crapl, and bs and people they'll talk after high school. yea right. you will probably keep in touch with ONE person...if that...after high shool. especially those who are going off to college, there is no talking to your high school friends, get over that pipe dream and face reality. some people say that this is a really depressing thought, but i beg to differ. if you really think about it, you find your closest and truest friends in college, and i can not wait to see who those faithful are. so i am sorry if i have ruined the dream for you, but for me high school is so over, in fact its been over. i honestly can not wait to walk across that stage and say "its been real, but peace out" i am not coming back for reunions, and unless we talked on the phone or hung out on the weekends, i dont plan to keep in touch. okay so im sorry but for once somebody just had to be real...peace out |
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| Check up time |
[Mar. 11th, 2006|08:48 pm] |
well over the past month i have been thru nothing but drama. but somehow i ade it through and now i am going to let you take a glimpse into my life.
if u dont know kevin kirksey is my boyfriend...i believe we began dating on january 19 please forgive me for not adding it in. the relationship has been good so far although there have been a few downs, but the ups seem to out weigh them. i thought my friendship with one of my closest friends but we fixed it so now that relationship is good. also mock trial made it to the playoffs which im sure kris and natalie have informed you of so there is no point to go into greater details. also i found out that as of jan 13, my bestfriend is sick but he'll be okay with my tlc and we're maintaining an optimistic attitude...yesterday we celebrated his 18th birthday. oh by the way i turned 18 in february. anyway besides that everything is gravy so live life and have fun lj family |
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| BlahBlah |
[Jan. 10th, 2006|12:05 pm] |
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well i am on LJ and once again i have nothing to write. tomorrow i have my interview with a columbia alumnae for columbia university. now i am bored so bye |
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| ROLL CALL |
[Jan. 5th, 2006|12:00 pm] |
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| | Ashley Simpson-Autobiography | ] |
hey wass up LJ family sorry i have not been on for a while but i have been really busy. so let me do my check up
first of all i was feeling kind of depressed because my IB girls (akilah, crystal, erika)all applied to Ivy League schools and i only applied to one so i was feeling lazy i guess. but i dont cuz i got into penn state and im waiting to hear from georgetown and columbia. anyways i just felt like maybe i did not apply myself, but applying to colleges is not a competition its about going to school that you think you will excel personally and intellectually. im glad i figured that out, so im not so sad anymore...
my love life is great and you wanna know why: I AM ALONE!!!!!! i am enjoying being single and it seems like now that i actually like being single all these guys wanna hop on. well let tell you, no man will justify my life nope not anymore... i am satisfied with myself. kevin aka killa k (some of yall may no him)he just doesnt seem to understand that. i like being with just me and i dont want a boyfriend, i mean sure i like talking to him, and going out and he is a real gentlemen and so sweet but i dont want a boyfriend, i just wanna chill. back in the day i guy would love if a girl told him that, but now it seems like all of them are pressed for a relationship and a committment and it just makes me mad. so now kevin doesnt want to speak to me but im like whatever i am not gonna to trip... i will do what makes me happy
mr lemmond (IB english teacher) gave me a B and i truly believe i deserved an A, but i wont get mad. I finally got a B in geography so im happy all As and 2 Bs
mock trial is going well... the case seems a little difficult to me but it will be fun. kris was sick and i was worried cuz i thought she was going to have to drop us but no she is back on the team (welcome back kris) and we have a good team with 2 guys oooooooooh its about time lol
thats all i can think of oh by the way merry christmas and happy new year to all sorry its coming so late. i had a good christmas and am well satisfied. i am glad it is 2006 because this is my year next month february 7 i turn 18, so i want to get my belly pierced no matter how moms feels about it. also i graduate and i go to college so everything is on the ups and ups this is my year
much luv to all, talk to ya on the next check up |
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| Nothin Much |
[Nov. 16th, 2005|02:37 pm] |
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everything has been goin great for me so far. i went to NY this past weekend for the first time to see Fordham University and i was a true tourist. i was like OMG look at all the taxis and the empire state building and WOW now were on the Brooklyn Bridge and WOW look at that ghetto lol. i was just excited and so i enjoyed my self. there are 3 campuses but i saw 2 and i hate the traditional one because FU is a Jesuit school and there are these huge bronze statues of jesus everywhere and its kinda freaky, also the campus is really traditional and i have to walk to the different halls in NY snow (i dont think so), also the traditional one has a safe campus but if i step outside the campus i might die because its in the Bronx. So i like the Manhattan city, which is in the Big City. the campus is really modern. because the campus is in the city FU rented out like a 20 story apartment building and all the students live there. and so the dorms are really apartments with bathrooms, and kitchens, and living rooms (no dining room). Then you take the elevator to the ground level and you walk through this hall way and BOOM your in your classes. its great and safe and great.
moving on...reggie hasnt called in about 1 week and at first i was mad, but then i realized that i was praying to GOd to make him stop calling and so i guess God really does answer prayers cuz reggie was my biggest temptation. so thank god
to all the O5ers i miss you and hope adult life is going great
i hate akilahs bf dave. i mean why wont she just dump him he is so beneath her and her excuse to me is well you dated ronald and im like okay make the same mistakes (shes acting like an idiot) |
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| Natalie said update so im updating |
[Oct. 26th, 2005|04:50 pm] |
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sorry that i dont have time to write everyday. but to catch yall up life has been on the up and up. i sent in my penn state and fordham applications and i been doing pretty good. im trying hard to walk well with god so yall pray for me. i hope walter, nikoleeta and whoever else in college is doing well. also i hope kris gets better. |
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| My Month |
[Sep. 30th, 2005|08:15 am] |
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Do you believe that there can be a month just for you...a month where it seems like everything works out just the way it is supposed to? Thats the way I felt about September, this month was my month to be free and truly happy. I got truly saved so yall pray for me, started my college apps, and met this wonderful guy named Reggie. I mean things have truly been on the up and up since i dumped Ronald, but this month was "my month". My parents and i are doing great and school is going great. |
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| Hard Working |
[Sep. 9th, 2005|10:57 am] |
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Well life is pretty great right now. I am a senior, and i am about to take my senior pictures. I am on yearbook and plan to make it the best. Marion calls me and conversing with him is fun, i see some potential there. I am working hard in school and am hoping to get into a great school like PENN STATE!!!!!!!!!!!! also i found out that i am one of the top black students in the school so that qualifies me and some others for a scholarship. Life is good right now |
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| New love interest |
[Aug. 31st, 2005|11:24 am] |
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| | TOUCH-AMERIE | ] |
i am so in love with marion turner of the central falcons football team. i swear i want to have his baby and be his wife and be forever and ever in love. he is so beautiful and nice and funny and sweet and omg just all around the right guy for me. his only weakness is that he lacks in intelligence i mean he is a 2.0 student which is pretty good for a guy (fellas dont get me wrong) but yea, so he plans to go to college and be a computer engineer or something like that. i dont know and i dont care i want to go to prom with him at least just give me that. i love MARION TURNER (SCREAM)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
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| earlier continued |
[Aug. 22nd, 2005|02:53 pm] |
well i hope there is a major crisis because it is 254 and we are still in school so i hope that osama bin laden is outside because i would like not to spend the rest of my life at central high school
but leaving off where i left off, the first day has been good, i saw the boy marion that i like and the whole rhodesia thing, well thats over she was too young and too immature so i had to move on
boot camp was interesting and that was about it i hope the school year goes well and i get accepted to a college of my choice til next time peace and blessings |
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| Its My Year |
[Aug. 22nd, 2005|12:44 pm] |
Well its great it is finally my year and the wait is almost over. I cant not wait to walk across that stage and 100% slam dunk into the college life, it is wonderful.
Well my first day back at central was same old same old, nothing great to look forward to exccept graduation. i saw all my friends who i missed dearly over the summer. so big hellos to khristina and natalie and any other friends of mine on livejournal. i miss class of 05 but i must admit im glad they are out the way.
in my opinoin my summer was pretty boring because it was ordinary and the same old same old ( i must like that saying)any hoo...i went to boot camp for ROTC for one week and came home i worked and then the week before school went on vacation with my family which was pretty fun. however yesterday my parents and i got into a heated discussion about me talking to my friends more them but im like you yelling at me makes me not want to talk more. but bell rang so gotta go write more later peace |
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| Check up |
[Jun. 16th, 2005|06:52 pm] |
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| | GRAVY BABY | ] |
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| | We belong together-mariah carey | ] |
i dont write in my livejournal often but when i do i give an overall checkup so here it is.......
i miss everyone from central believe it or not, i mean all i do all day is stay home watch tv and talk on the phone. i need something productive to do and that is what school gave me but now i have nothing. to natalie, and kris hey wass up hope yall summer is going good and to walter and nick (sorry i know i wont spell ur name right so i wont even try) but anyway, i hope yall are enjoying your freedom as newly adults and both yall have my number so i really dont understand why yall havent called yet but whatever i guess u could say the same about me so be looking for a call from me soon.
guess what (this may disappoint some people) but i have began talking to this girl and when i say talking to hopefully yall know what i mean. anyway she is great and just what i need from ronald so im happy. she is a sweetie and because im so considerate i dont want to disgust some fellow readers so thats about all on my Lady.....
i got a job but i wont know where until friday so ill tell yall where that is and love all yall have a great summer talk to yall in about two weeks...........cest la vie!!!!!!!!!!! |
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| LIFE SUCKS |
[Apr. 16th, 2005|12:57 pm] |
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THROUGHOUT THIS THIS WHOLE WEEK MY LIFE HAS BEEN A BIG JUMBLE OF SHIT. eSPCIALLY THIS WEEKEND ON fRIDAY WHEN I WENT TO THE AMERICA'S BEST AND GOT THE WHOLE EYE EXAMINATION, TO FIND OUT THAT THEY DONT TAKE EYE INSURANCE SO WE PAID FOR THE EXAMINATION AND LEFT NO GLASSES NO CONTACTS. SO IM MAD BECAUSE THEY DONT TAKE EYE INSURTANCE BECAUSE THEIR THE CHEAPEST AND MY MOTHER WANTS TO BE EVEN MORE CHEAPER. SO THEN IM LIKE OKAY WHATEVER IM GETTING MY LEARNERS ON SATURDAY, AND MY STEP DAD TAKES ME UP THERE ANDI WAIT IN THAT LONG ASS LINE TO FIND OUT THAT STP PARENTS CANT BE CO SIGNERS SO I HAD TO GO HOME. SO THEN IM LIKE WELL MA WILL TAKE ME TO GET MY NAILS DONE BUT SHE SAYS NO SO THIS WEEKEND HAS JUST BEEN SHITTY |
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| When is over, over? |
[Apr. 4th, 2005|12:35 pm] |
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So this past week (spring break), i broke up with my one year relationship, my boyfriend ronald. i think that this may be the break up because its not because i was mad or sad or anything like that. its that for the first time i really sat back and took a look a my relationship and i didnt like the way it looked. i mean in some ways its good and im happy but the some ways dont cover the ways im not. for example he smokes cigarretes and weed, he is failing his senior year, he cant keep a job, its just like young i can do so much better. so thats why i called it off, i mean i still want to talk to him and be friends and when he was like no, i got mad. but why am i getting mad when im the one that called it off. its like a part wants him when i want him and then discard him when im done, and i think he senses that i do that and is trying to either stay away from me or talk to me on his own terms. so when is over, mean over, i mean can you be over and still remain good friends, maybe i cant. because i swear if i were to see him kiss a girl and walk her to class and just be all over him like he used to do me then i would freak the fuck out and i dont want to be like that esp when im the one who called it off. and then today, we kissed each other, but i dont think we felt anything from it, it was just what we were used to doing from going with each other for a year. so please tell me when is over, over? |
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| What is a Break? |
[Mar. 22nd, 2005|11:29 am] |
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I declared a break from my relationship on Friday, and it seems like it was ok but then i began to get confused, What is a Break? Im confused because in school ronald cleared all his stuff from my locker and then for the rest of the morning. So im like what does he hate me now, and then i call and talk to him later and he was like well im confused. so im like whatever, and then we talked all night and he said i love you and i said it back hesitantly. so does this confuse matters even worse!!!!!!!!!
Then hes mad cuz i wont come ova his house tomorrow but im like were on a break so why do i need to come over. That would just make me or us even more confused!!!!!!!!!!
But i gave in anyway and ill be ova there tomorrow, oh well
Plus i met this boy on blackplanet yesterday via chat, and oh my god his name is ronald the shit is so funny. |
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| WOW |
[Mar. 18th, 2005|10:44 am] |
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so guess what, central made it to the final four in mock trial, this is the farthest we have ever gone and i am so excited.. this is the first actual successful team in central history cuz it aint basketball, it aint football, no its all about the MOCK TRIAL!!!!!! YEA BABY. i was very disappointed that my parents didnt come but my mother "had" to preach so oh well. hopefully they can see the next one. our competition was really good although there decorem in my opinion was a little off, like the girl didnt wear stockings and then another one had her long ass hair out, and it just wasnt very professional thats why i think we got the final point, because it was a tie. anyway i had fun and i hope we get some boys on mocktrial cuz we needs some. i hope he is tall, dark, haircut with shapeup and just overall sexy and smart. thats a false dream though oh well peace |
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| I Hate Her |
[Mar. 15th, 2005|10:53 am] |
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My mother keeps pissing me off with all her BS. Let me tell you the new additions to the awful story of the SS check. We were nicely discussing my monthly expenditures with this money because i was willing to accomodate and compromise. So i tell her that i want to set $2400, for a car and then of course give my tithes and basically save the rest in a general savings. Well she tells me that i will set aside 2000 and that she needs to spend some of it to buy something for herself. I nicely ask her what, what do you need to buy. She says none of your business, so im like i have to budget MY money around your spending and shes like yea basically. I Hate Her, and then my stepfather is going to come in on the tail end of the conversation and be like tammy you need to respect your mother and her wishes. im like you dont even know the story so go to hell. its okay if she needs to use the money, but why cant she tell me what for, i mean im supposed to be learning how to be an adult with this money but she wont tell me why or how much she is depositing basically ill just find out and have to work with it Hell No!!!! |
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| Catch Up |
[Mar. 11th, 2005|10:59 am] |
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i have not written in a while so every paragraph will be a seperate story
Well to begin i am going to start getting my fathers social security check, which should help me alot financially with college, buying a car and senior fees. however my mother wants me to start paying for my own hair and the basic extras that in the beginning she agreed to pay for. im like okay whatever i dont have time to deal with you, plus im going to be getting a job this summer anyway, which will be in my next paragraph.....
Well guess what i got my first job working at the Tantallon Country Club either being a lifeguard or a gatekeeper and if im lucky i might be able to work in a office. See what happened was of course i made an interview appt, and i went to what i thought was late, but really he thought i was on time. the interview started at 4:30 and i had just made it by like two minutes. anyway the guy interviewing me was really cute and young. he introduced himself as Mr.Ryan which i thought was stupid cuz i knew he was extremely young and his first name was ryan, but maybe he thought that made him sound mature. anyway i was really nervous cuz this was my very first interview ever and he was really cute, so i sort of had the heebie jeebies!!!!! anyway at the end he said i was the best interview he had done in 2 years and i was like thanks what a relief and so he said well im going to hire u right on the spot and he said he wasnt going to pay me minimum wage but more!!!! so i was like thaks. also i dont know what it is but it seems as though that since im going with a white boy, that i recognize more white boys as cute now. Ryan had this really sexy boyish smile, with these gorgeous brown eyes and short sark brunnette hair, he was tall, asnd a little skinny for my liking but so what he was still cute. For him to be so young he is very succesful and i hope i get to see some more of him this summer!!!!!!!!!!!
My parents are seriously blowing me, ever since i was younger they always promised me that if i kept my grades up they would give me a nice car that was from a decent year, like now that would be something over a 1998 car. However now that im getting this little bit of change in my pocket, they want to flip the script and so im like okay so they want ME to buy a used car from off the lot for like 3000. but come to find they dont cars off the lot for 3000 and when i told them this they were looking at me like duh stupid, because by used car they meant something sombody was selling in their driveway or something. and im just blown cuz thats not what i wanted, i truly cant believe it. but ill go with the flow cuz i guess there are some pretty good cars people are trying to sell so if u know someone let me know, the car must have a CD player and automatic drive...........thanks
What is with my mother and all of these fat jokes. i swear if she calls me fat one more time im going to be anorexic. she just blows me and telling people yea tammy gained all this weight she gonna be fat as sa house when she get older and shit like that. im like why dont u just shut the fuck up and leave me alone
My boyfriend is blowing me, in the past i used to think he had all this potential but i was tripping. he is staying back in his 12th grade year and i am just so blown. im like if im trying to go somewhere then u should be headed in that same direction right. i mean i hate to get biblical but how can two walk together unless they agree, and we dont agree. ihave a feeling its going to be ova soon cuz i think he might be holding me back from my own potential
Mock trial won their first playoffs for this year and i made allstar lawyer i hope we go really far, cuz this is something that i truly enjoy. wish us luck peace.................... |
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